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Friday, September 3, 2010 ,

2:56 AM

heyheyhey !

`sorry, it wuz a distraction x)

So.
History's history, guess it's time to move on !
Dont wanna waste my life away bein unhappy and letting the unnecessary affect me. I used to cry and get all depressed by the slightest provocation but right now, i feel that whether i cry or not is meaningless. So y'can try hard to hurt me any way, but all i can say is that i dont gv that much of an RIP anymore, so you'll just be wasting your time, darlin(: And evn if you were t'try doin that, please do that for a reason. Yknow, dont go fucking people all over not knowing why, or, letting the person know wth's gg on(:

Idk if my new personality has stagnated but i guess the emotional abandonment and detachment i felt's the cause. It just went all stale and i didnt wanna shrug it off like nothing hppned, but i didnt wanna make you feel like you were the only one in control either. People dont just 'fall outta' whatever as if they were changing channels on the television and stations on the radio.Those emotions cant be turned off just like that. But why did it for me? I thought that emotion could withstand everything and that all those 'heartfelt' apologies carried true meaning.

Boy, lookin back now, i wuz just so immature.

Yea, i wuz kept in a bubble of inactivity, self-doubt and self loathing. All the negative forces. And as for you, you were just floating there attempting to label me. Darlin, only I, and I alone can define who i am and what is acceptable in my life; nobody else including you has that job(:

I guess im done grieving over the loss of an unfufilled relationship in which i ended.

I'm starting to think that whn on that emotional roller coaster, i wuznt lost at all, just temporarily misplaced. There were goals i once had for my life, and they're stl there under the surface. Some things might be distractions with a recipe for dissappointment attatched. I dont want that. I'm in control of my destiny so get outta my way. You've got no power over me anymore, baby ! .

` Mel.

Labels: feelings change; Everything changes., people change, Seasons change

Thursday, July 1, 2010 ,

3:36 AM

im on dha phone(:

Hellooo !!

i love Marcus ♥

teehee, ive bn editing my playlist but not blog about stuff.
awesome songsssss(:
BABY BOY YOURE SO REMARKABLE, SO SPECIAL, SO WONDERFUL.
hmmm, sch is :/
gym is >:p tiring.
it wasnt evn considered a hol for me, i had to go bck to sch almost evryday for stuff.
I GO AYE, AYE SHAWTY.

i really hate gg to sch and seeing 2 sided bitches. seriously, some people gotta learn to grow up.
one moment youre like this and another you make me feel so idk SUICIDAL.
yea i give it to you, you actually manage to make me feel that way LIKE HEY I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS HERE.you piss the bloody butt outta me and its only a matter of time till you see me explode.
anyway ill just play along. isnt that what ive bn doin? forget it ill drop it.
im exhauuuusted.

sorry but, bye ♥

~iloveMarcus~

Tuesday, March 2, 2010 ,

3:36 AM

it's the 2nd day of March !

HAPPY FIRST YEAR,

DARLIN !!!

~iloveyou, MarcusNg.~

♥

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010 ,

5:55 AM

bag hunt.

Hello, World(:

alright, so. this is gonna be a really short post, i think.

okay so, you see the pic yea x)

it wuz Bag Hunt day and i wuz gonna meet Phoebe aft gttin ready. like duh right.

uhm, i wuz a lil bored so... yknow what(:

so. got a new sch bag. Phoebe too(:

i gt a Yakpak. wuz thinkin of gttin the $80 Eastpak but friends said the colour kindda sucked.

as for Marcus, he doesnt like plain bags. so, idk why i asked him. hahas.

` Thanks anw darlin. You too, Lynette(:

[babe, i screwed up that day. im really sorry.]

i named her Tiffany. idk why how what the ff but, yea. (:

she's pink x)

okay whatever, im gonna drop it.

so uhm, ive got this POA CAone tmw.

yes peeps, i actually read thru the textbk. but i doubt im gonna do well.

like, ive gt difficulty rmb-ing the concepts.

whatever. ill just do my best.

I swear, im pmsing agn.

so like... argh.

im so fugging tired. my CCA's takin ovr my life. Jeez.

sigh, think im gonna read thru the bk agn and im off to lalaworld.

` i miss you marcus ng. hurry cme bck frm e dinner thang.

right, im being totally irrelevent now.

IM TIRED.

'yea thn why are you blogging~'

erm ppl, i cnt just study 24/7 cuz ill go crazy. and now's considered my. break. rest time. whatever. GAWD.

nvm. that wuznt directed to you. it wuz you. whatever.

sorry but, bye.

~iloveMarcus~ ♥

ciao(:

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Tuesday, January 12, 2010 ,

8:41 PM

It's a sch day. However, you see me blogging here right now.

I wuz down w Allergic Conjunctivitis again. its annoying. Came back straight aft assembly in the morning.

Anyway(:

I hvnt bn using the com alot since sch started.

I'm studying hard. x) like, finally.

so if youve bn wondering why you hvnt bn seeing me online lately, you know why now.

Piece of good news; My stepmother is pregnant(:

yupp, which mkes me a sister. In lets say... bout 4 months time(:

A July baby, most prob.

Dad asked me to give ideas for the baby's name. I told him ill be the one choosing baby clothes for him or her whn he or she is born(:

Alright now, ive got nth else much left to say.

Gonna sleep now, thn start doin my homework and study whn i awake.

~iloveMarcus~

ciao(:

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Dont wanna waste my life away bein unhappy and letting the unnecessary affect me. I used to cry and get all depressed by the slightest provocation but right now, i feel that whether i cry or not is meaningless. So y'can try hard to hurt me any way, but all i can say is that i dont gv that much of an RIP anymore, so you'll just be wasting your time, darlin(: And evn if you were t'try doin that, please do that for a reason. Yknow, dont go fucking people all over not knowing why, or, letting the person know wth's gg on(: Idk if my new personality has stagnated but i guess the emotional abandonment and detachment i felt's the cause. It just went all stale and i didnt wanna shrug it off like nothing hppned, but i didnt wanna make you feel like you were the only one in control either. People dont just 'fall outta' whatever as if they were changing channels on the television and stations on the radio.Those emotions cant be turned off just like that. But why did it for me? I thought that emotion could withstand everything and that all those 'heartfelt' apologies carried true meaning. Boy, lookin back now, i wuz just so immature. Yea, i wuz kept in a bubble of inactivity, self-doubt and self loathing. All the negative forces. And as for you, you were just floating there attempting to label me. Darlin, only I, and I alone can define who i am and what is acceptable in my life; nobody else including you has that job(: I guess im done grieving over the loss of an unfufilled relationship in which i ended. I'm starting to think that whn on that emotional roller coaster, i wuznt lost at all, just temporarily misplaced. There were goals i once had for my life, and they're stl there under the surface. Some things might be distractions with a recipe for dissappointment attatched. I dont want that. I'm in control of my destiny so get outta my way. You've got no power over me anymore, baby ! . ` Mel. Labels: feelings change; Everything changes., people change, Seasons change Thursday, July 1, 2010 , 3:36 AM im on dha phone(: Hellooo !! i love Marcus ♥ teehee, ive bn editing my playlist but not blog about stuff. awesome songsssss(: BABY BOY YOURE SO REMARKABLE, SO SPECIAL, SO WONDERFUL. hmmm, sch is :/ gym is >:p tiring. it wasnt evn considered a hol for me, i had to go bck to sch almost evryday for stuff. I GO AYE, AYE SHAWTY. i really hate gg to sch and seeing 2 sided bitches. seriously, some people gotta learn to grow up. one moment youre like this and another you make me feel so idk SUICIDAL. yea i give it to you, you actually manage to make me feel that way LIKE HEY I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS HERE.you piss the bloody butt outta me and its only a matter of time till you see me explode. anyway ill just play along. isnt that what ive bn doin? forget it ill drop it. im exhauuuusted. sorry but, bye ♥ ~iloveMarcus~ Tuesday, March 2, 2010 , 3:36 AM it's the 2nd day of March ! *HAPPY FIRST YEAR,* *DARLIN !!!* *~iloveyou, MarcusNg.~* ♥ Labels: 020310 ♥ Wednesday, January 27, 2010 , 5:55 AM bag hunt. Hello, World(: alright, so. this is gonna be a really short post, i think. okay so, you see the pic yea x) it wuz Bag Hunt day and i wuz gonna meet Phoebe aft gttin ready. like duh right. uhm, i wuz a lil bored so... yknow what(: so. got a new sch bag. Phoebe too(: i gt a Yakpak. wuz thinkin of gttin the $80 Eastpak but friends said the colour kindda sucked. as for Marcus, he doesnt like plain bags. so, idk why i asked him. hahas. ` Thanks anw darlin. You too, Lynette(: [babe, i screwed up that day. im really sorry.] i named her Tiffany. idk why how what the ff but, yea. (: she's pink x) okay whatever, im gonna drop it. so uhm, ive got this POA CAone tmw. yes peeps, i actually read thru the textbk. but i doubt im gonna do well. like, ive gt difficulty rmb-ing the concepts. whatever. ill just do my best. I swear, im pmsing agn. so like... argh. im so fugging tired. my CCA's takin ovr my life. Jeez. sigh, think im gonna read thru the bk agn and im off to lalaworld. ` i miss you marcus ng. hurry cme bck frm e dinner thang. right, im being totally irrelevent now. IM TIRED. 'yea thn why are you blogging~' erm ppl, i cnt just study 24/7 cuz ill go crazy. and now's considered my. break. rest time. whatever. GAWD. nvm. that wuznt directed to you. it wuz you. whatever. sorry but, bye. ~iloveMarcus~ ♥ *ciao(:* Labels: Tiffany. Tuesday, January 12, 2010 , 8:41 PM It's a sch day. However, you see me blogging here right now. I wuz down w Allergic Conjunctivitis again. its annoying. Came back straight aft assembly in the morning. Anyway(: I hvnt bn using the com alot since sch started. I'm studying hard. x) like, finally. so if youve bn wondering why you hvnt bn seeing me online lately, you know why now. *Piece of good news; My stepmother is pregnant(:* yupp, which mkes me a sister. In lets say... bout 4 months time(: A July baby, most prob. Dad asked me to give ideas for the baby's name. I told him ill be the one choosing baby clothes for him or her whn he or she is born(: Alright now, ive got nth else much left to say. Gonna sleep now, thn start doin my homework and study whn i awake. ~iloveMarcus~ *ciao(:*